Happy Dance!! Happy Dance!!
Can you tell I am happy?
This morning I went to a workshop and I stepped on the
scale to weigh in. I weigh myself every
morning (see my previous post here about weighing or not weighing) and I knew
it would be down! Down!
After all of my struggles the past couple of years and
especially this year, I am thrilled to see the number down. But I have seen this before. Shoot, the past year I have been up and down
a million times. So, what makes this
week any different? Why am I so
happy? What makes me so sure this is the
beginning of continued downs on the scale?
Because things are different….. food choices, behaviors,
thoughts, words I say to myself and my mindset….all different. Finally!
I committed these past couple of weeks to making me a
priority. And that means, I do the
things that help me move forward. It
means I am tracking. It means I am mindful
of my food choices, the signals my body is sending me and the thoughts in my
mind. It means I go to a weekly workshop
and step on the scale. It means I meal
plan. It means I remind myself every
morning that I am worth it. It means I
am taking care of me—mind, body and soul.
I am making me a priority.
(Seriously, why did it take me so long?)
This past week I made some changes. In my mindset, by making me a priority and in my food choices and awareness, which meant I tracked. Every. Single. Day.
Food choices were not always the best this past week, but
they were made with me keeping in mind that I am the priority. Each temptation, each meal plan, each food
choice was predicated with the question to myself—“Does this make me a
priority?” If yes, then go with it but
if not then what will? The best example
of this is on Halloween, yes, that challenging day filled with all sorts of
candy temptations. My husband and I went
to a movie, and we got a bag of Twix bites to share. Before this past couple of weeks, I would
have just sat down and ate, without thinking, out of the bag. And I would have eaten quickly to make sure I
got my “share” before my husband could.
But this time, with this new mentality, I actually looked at the back of
the bag at the label. 5 pieces were a
serving and there were 4 ½ servings in the bag.
I calculated the points (7!) and decided that I could have 2 servings—10
pieces. I told my husband that I wanted
10 and he could have the rest. And I ate
them slowly. When I finished the 5th
piece, I stopped. I STOPPED!! At that moment I knew I was good. That the treat made me feel like a priority,
but I didn’t need anymore. So, I did not
eat another piece. I made me a priority—enjoying
a treat without the guilt or overindulgence.
The other part of my food changes came in the form of a lightbulb moment! I realized that when Freestyle launched 2 years ago, that it just didn’t work for me, because I changed, drastically the way I ate. When it first launched, I was teetering dangerously close to the edge of the cliff and needed to be talked off that edge by a friend and one of my managers. I knew myself. I knew that all of those 0 point foods, that used to be points, would be dangerous. Because now I could eat all of those foods AND STILL eat all of my points!?! I knew I would overeat. I knew it would be dangerous for me. But my manager and friend convinced me to look at it differently…..that those foods would fill me up and keep me from eating the other higher point things….. but for me, personally, that wasn’t how it would work. But I tried it and convinced my members to follow it and to trust the program.
Freestyle works for a lot of people. But not everyone. Weight loss is NOT a one-size-fits-all journey. And each of us needs to find what works for us. Because, we are the only ones who truly know us. No one else knows what works for me, only I do. And I often told members in workshops that they needed to find what worked for them, to trust the science and then make the WW plan fit their life. Make it their own. We are all on a similar journey, but an individual one. And I needed to remind myself of what worked for me, so I pulled out my old trackers. That is when I realized that I had changed the way I was eating. When I brought out my old program materials and my old handwritten food journals, there it was, one of the missing puzzle pieces to my journey….. I had changed what I was eating and how much. And I was still eating ALL those points too. I was eating 4-6 eggs per day and counting 0 points, when in the past they would have cost me 8-12 points. But they were 0 points now and I could eat them, as much as I wanted…….
Every time I heard a member say they could eat as much as
they wanted I would stop them, and we would discuss that it was meant to be as
much as they needed to fill satisfied. And
here I was with that same thought process, only I hadn’t realized it ‘til just
last week. No wonder I was struggling! So, I told myself what I had heard my voice
say when talking to struggling members, “just because they are 0 points does
not mean they are free! And it does not
mean we need to change the way we eat, just because the food is now 0 points”.
AHA! BAM!! The truth for me was that I needed to eat the way I had been eating for years, the way that worked for me. And this past week I did just that. I went back to my egg white omelets in the morning. I went back to my normal lunch, instead of looking for the 0 point foods and gorging on them. I went back to healthy snacks that were not just 0 point foods, instead of the sweets and chips that I was eating to use up all those points I had left because the other foods were 0 points. And you know what, I felt great! I tracked it all and I stayed on track. Why didn’t I just do this sooner? Had I continued eating the way I had been, then Freestyle would have worked fantastically for me! Instead, my mindset around food changed and my choices did too. How I wish I had realized this when WW first launched Freestyle, I would not be where I am today (maybe). But this journey is about learning and growing and finding what works for me so that I can be the healthiest and best version of me.
Like I said earlier, we each need to find what works for
us. And while I struggled, many others found
great success, including a friend and former member of my workshops who reached
lifetime today with a 105 lb loss!
Find what works for you!
There are many things I love about Freestyle—it keeps me from feeling
guilty or stressed. It gives me
flexibility. I love the rollover points,
so I can plan for those parties and special occasions and not worry about going
off the rails. But for me, the unstructured
0-point foods were dangerous….. Now that I know that, well I can get back to
eating my normal way. Instead of 2-3
cups of chili AND cornbread (usually 2 pieces, with butter and honey), I am
having 1 cup of chili and a piece of cornbread.
Instead of 6 eggs in my day, I am having 1. Instead of 6 oz of Chicken breast, I am
eating 3-4 oz. It works for me.
Those food realizations and changes, combined with my “make
myself a priority” mindset, proved to be quite successful for me this week!
When I stepped on that scale this morning, I was thrilled! I lost 4.6 lbs this week!! (yes, I know a lot of it was water, but I LOST!) And next week that scale will be down again. Why? Because I am now making myself a priority!!
I may not be perfect each day. But I am perfectly imperfect on this journey
to a healthier and happier me!